I am sitting here listening to my sweet girls laugh and play. It is such a sweet sound. I am so blessed to be able to watch my kiddos grow up; to share their joys, frustrations, and milestones with them. I all too often take this for granted. But really, I am one lucky mama!
I am down to the final few weeks of school. It is both exciting and scary. I am taking a year off; I need it and my family needs it! I hope to use this next year to grow closer to God, my husband, and my girls. I also hope to get to know me better. Lately (like most of my life) I have been so busy that I have forgotten to check in with me. I am determined to change this; to take time and rest and get to know who I really am. It is long overdue!
This next week is Spring Break for the girls. I am excited to spend some time out of routine. I am determined to be less rigid and enjoy our week off together! We are hoping to visit San Fransisco and have some play dates. Later in the week, Grandma and Auntie are coming to visit. It will be nice not to have appointments, school, and busyness predict our days!
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Rainy Day and Parenting Woes
I am sitting and snuggling with the girls and it is raining outside. I love the sound of rain. It has been a challenging afternoon with the girls- lots of bickering and petty arguments. I have done good keeping my cool but I am definitely ready for their bedtime!
I have a speech to give tomorrow night for my Communications class. I am speaking on the topic of parenting. It is funny, I have SO many parenting books! I keep adding to my collection; I guess I am looking for the secret answer to being a good parent! I don't think there is one! However, as I have been preparing for this speech, I have been reading the book, Scream Free Parenting. I LOVE this book! It is so practical and easy to understand. I am going to re-read it this summer (since I will be FREE of homework by then) and try to really glean some useful tools for my parenting tool bag.
One of the little quotes in the book really stood out to me. It says, " Without space to make their own mistakes, our kids live only borrowed lives." Wow! I want so badly to protect my girls from mistakes. But really, they have to experience them to grow. It is so hard to let go and trust God and believe that they will be okay.
I have a speech to give tomorrow night for my Communications class. I am speaking on the topic of parenting. It is funny, I have SO many parenting books! I keep adding to my collection; I guess I am looking for the secret answer to being a good parent! I don't think there is one! However, as I have been preparing for this speech, I have been reading the book, Scream Free Parenting. I LOVE this book! It is so practical and easy to understand. I am going to re-read it this summer (since I will be FREE of homework by then) and try to really glean some useful tools for my parenting tool bag.
One of the little quotes in the book really stood out to me. It says, " Without space to make their own mistakes, our kids live only borrowed lives." Wow! I want so badly to protect my girls from mistakes. But really, they have to experience them to grow. It is so hard to let go and trust God and believe that they will be okay.
Friday, February 26, 2010
The end is near
I can hardly believe it, but the end of my schooling is near. Well, at least the bachelor's part. I still want to get my masters. But I digress. The end of this 18 month long journey is almost over. I am in a bit of shock. I keep wondering if I will really graduate in May. In my head, some unforeseen circumstance is going to prevent me from getting my diploma. That would really suck. And after I do graduate in May, then what? I know that I want to pursue my Masters in Social work, but the only school that offers that program is Sac State and it is very competitive to get into. What if I don't get accepted? I am planning on taking some time off this next year, but what if in the fall of 2011 I don't get in? My mind hasn't been my friend lately- I have been filled with doubts. I know that I need to let go and let God. I am trying. I am trusting that His plan will work. Mine might not, but His will.
Monday, January 4, 2010
A New Year
Wow it has been awhile since I have had time to write! What a rollercoaster the past few months have been; so very busy...
Lets see, some updates....
Claire- my sweet girl is now 6 years old. I can hardly believe it! She is getting too big, too fast. I am a little sad this year as I realize just how fast the past 6 years have gone by and how much of it I "missed". I want to be able to savor my girls more and enjoy them to the fullest! For her birthday, we went to the Railroad Museum in Sacramento. It was so much fun. Both girls had a blast and wanted to walk through the whole museum a second time. After that, we (being Aunt Jeanne, Grandma Debbie, Aunt Barbara, Hannah, Claire, and I) went lunch at the Cheesecake Factory. Good food!
Claire is just so full of life. She is very curious and can spend the day asking question after question. While this is quite tiring, I try to remind myself that she is just like a sponge and she wants more and more knowledge!
Hannah- this cutie pie is keeping me on my toes! She is learning that whining and crying will earn her a time out! Hannah is insistent on wearing a dress or a skirt over pants EVERYDAY! We spend alot of time in "negotiations" regarding her outfits. She is very determined to remain a princess. She has specific ideas about accessories and hairdos as well. Hannah is finally enjoying preschool which makes it SO much easier to take her!
Hannah is so compassionate. On Christmas day as I was tucking her into bed, she began to cry because she didn't want Christmas to be over. It wasn't about the gifts; it was about the magic of the season.
The other day the girls were playing in the backyard and I heard the following conversation:
Hannah: Claire, do you have Jesus in your heart?
Claire: Of course I do, Hannah, do you?
Hannah: Yes, sissy. I love Jesus!
This was so sweet and sincere! It made me smile and think that I must be doing something right for them to have random conversations about Jesus!
Okay, back to updates....
Brandon- He is doing good. He is working hard and playing harder. Now that ski season is here, he is quite happy and spends his Wednesdays enjoying the snow! I worry about him every time he goes, but I know that he will be okay. He has been busy at work, which I am so grateful for. No worries of what is going to happen with his job; Costco isn't going anywhere!
Me- I finished a 21 unit semester on December 16th. It was so hard and I wanted to quit many times, but I persevered and got A's and B's in all my classes! In addition to school, I have stayed busy running MOPS and helping coordinate a Christmas event at church. I am looking forward to my last semester, which starts in a few days. I can't wait to be done with this program! I am planning on continuing on to get my masters, but not until I take a break!
We also visited Disneyland in October for a week. It was a great trip and we are already planning this next years trip!
For this new year, I have a few resolutions. Of course the first being loosing weight. I think this is common on most people's list, but I am committed to making changes. So far I am eating smaller meals throughout the day. This is a challenge because I am NOT a morning person and I don't usually eat breakfast. I am also beginning to use my treadmill again and hope to hop on the Wii and use the fit board or the active program.
My second resolution is to savor my time more. I feel that I am so busy all the time that I don't ever get to really enjoy things. I want to slow it down and not rush through life anymore- it goes fast enough on it's own!
That's it for now- time to get the kids in the bath and get dinner cooking!
Lets see, some updates....
Claire- my sweet girl is now 6 years old. I can hardly believe it! She is getting too big, too fast. I am a little sad this year as I realize just how fast the past 6 years have gone by and how much of it I "missed". I want to be able to savor my girls more and enjoy them to the fullest! For her birthday, we went to the Railroad Museum in Sacramento. It was so much fun. Both girls had a blast and wanted to walk through the whole museum a second time. After that, we (being Aunt Jeanne, Grandma Debbie, Aunt Barbara, Hannah, Claire, and I) went lunch at the Cheesecake Factory. Good food!
Claire is just so full of life. She is very curious and can spend the day asking question after question. While this is quite tiring, I try to remind myself that she is just like a sponge and she wants more and more knowledge!
Hannah- this cutie pie is keeping me on my toes! She is learning that whining and crying will earn her a time out! Hannah is insistent on wearing a dress or a skirt over pants EVERYDAY! We spend alot of time in "negotiations" regarding her outfits. She is very determined to remain a princess. She has specific ideas about accessories and hairdos as well. Hannah is finally enjoying preschool which makes it SO much easier to take her!
Hannah is so compassionate. On Christmas day as I was tucking her into bed, she began to cry because she didn't want Christmas to be over. It wasn't about the gifts; it was about the magic of the season.
The other day the girls were playing in the backyard and I heard the following conversation:
Hannah: Claire, do you have Jesus in your heart?
Claire: Of course I do, Hannah, do you?
Hannah: Yes, sissy. I love Jesus!
This was so sweet and sincere! It made me smile and think that I must be doing something right for them to have random conversations about Jesus!
Okay, back to updates....
Brandon- He is doing good. He is working hard and playing harder. Now that ski season is here, he is quite happy and spends his Wednesdays enjoying the snow! I worry about him every time he goes, but I know that he will be okay. He has been busy at work, which I am so grateful for. No worries of what is going to happen with his job; Costco isn't going anywhere!
Me- I finished a 21 unit semester on December 16th. It was so hard and I wanted to quit many times, but I persevered and got A's and B's in all my classes! In addition to school, I have stayed busy running MOPS and helping coordinate a Christmas event at church. I am looking forward to my last semester, which starts in a few days. I can't wait to be done with this program! I am planning on continuing on to get my masters, but not until I take a break!
We also visited Disneyland in October for a week. It was a great trip and we are already planning this next years trip!
For this new year, I have a few resolutions. Of course the first being loosing weight. I think this is common on most people's list, but I am committed to making changes. So far I am eating smaller meals throughout the day. This is a challenge because I am NOT a morning person and I don't usually eat breakfast. I am also beginning to use my treadmill again and hope to hop on the Wii and use the fit board or the active program.
My second resolution is to savor my time more. I feel that I am so busy all the time that I don't ever get to really enjoy things. I want to slow it down and not rush through life anymore- it goes fast enough on it's own!
That's it for now- time to get the kids in the bath and get dinner cooking!
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Too busy to be sick
I have been sick all week. I have the flu and it has hit me HARD. I am finally starting to feel better, but still sluggish. I have alot to catch up on with school since I have done nothing all week. I hope that if Brandon and the kids get this, that they get it quick so they aren't sick on our vacation. I also have to start getting serious about our vacation- a whopping 16 days from now. While that might seem like plenty of time, it isn't because we have a very full 2 weeks ahead of us. There is never a dull moment, is there?
Claire is settling into school quite well. She loves it! She has a field trip to Apple Hill on Oct. 9th and she can not wait to ride on the school bus! She has anticipated riding on a school bus for several years. I think that is more exciting to her than the actual field trip. She is also officially a girl scout now! She started with her Daisy troop yesterday. She said she is going to do girl scouts forever, lol! She is a natural at ballet and is getting very good at it. She has the body of a ballerina and is very graceful when she dances.
Hannah is doing good also. She is silly as ever- where does she get it from? She is so goofy! I often find myself laughing and shaking my head at her because she is doing something off the wall. She is enjoying school a bit more but she still doesn't want to go in the mornings! She is really getting good at her handwriting and starting to grasp things much quicker. She too is getting great at ballet- it doesn't come as easy for her but she is putting in the effort and getting better.
Brandon is finally feeling better from his accident. He has been busy with work and counting down the days until ski season! He is so happy that the weather is cooling down.
Well, that is it for now. Happy Fall!
Claire is settling into school quite well. She loves it! She has a field trip to Apple Hill on Oct. 9th and she can not wait to ride on the school bus! She has anticipated riding on a school bus for several years. I think that is more exciting to her than the actual field trip. She is also officially a girl scout now! She started with her Daisy troop yesterday. She said she is going to do girl scouts forever, lol! She is a natural at ballet and is getting very good at it. She has the body of a ballerina and is very graceful when she dances.
Hannah is doing good also. She is silly as ever- where does she get it from? She is so goofy! I often find myself laughing and shaking my head at her because she is doing something off the wall. She is enjoying school a bit more but she still doesn't want to go in the mornings! She is really getting good at her handwriting and starting to grasp things much quicker. She too is getting great at ballet- it doesn't come as easy for her but she is putting in the effort and getting better.
Brandon is finally feeling better from his accident. He has been busy with work and counting down the days until ski season! He is so happy that the weather is cooling down.
Well, that is it for now. Happy Fall!
Sunday, August 2, 2009
A real Kindergartener and much more....
Claire had her last day of preschool on Friday. It was bittersweet and I must admit, I teared up. I didn't expect this response, but really I should have. The teachers at Joy Of Children have given me such great support and love over the past 3 years and Claire has thrived there. Claire has mixed emotions about Kindergarten- she is excited because it is "real school", but on the other hand she is scared. Most of her preschool friends will be attending other schools, so Claire will be making lots of new friends. One week from tomorrow, and she will be attending "real school!" I don't think I am ready for this-it feels like she was just a baby. As I think back on these past five years, I am filled with a bit of regret. There are so many things that I would have done differently; so many mistakes that I have made. She is my first born and I am, in a lot of ways, much tougher on her than Hannah. She pushes ever button inside of me and instead of loving her and embracing her special and unique makeup, I get irritated and frustrated. I constantly battle with myself and my parenting abilities. I know that this is and always will be an area of growth....
On to other things- Brandon started back to work a few days ago. It has been an adjustment for all of us. He is dealing with it fairly well, and he is not in too much pain. I on the other hand, realize how grateful I am to have him as my husband. He does SO much around the house and with the kids. I miss his help! And his companionship- it is lonely in the evenings again! Back to routine....
Speaking of routine, mine has changed as I was laid off this week. This is both good and bad. Bad because we need the extra money and I need the time away from the house. But really, it is good. I am going to be so busy this fall with school (taking 21 units in the fall! Yikes!) and with MOPs ( coordinating it for the first time) and with our vacation (Disney for a week! I can't wait) and with Claire being in Kindergarten (homework, adjusting her schedule, etc) and with Hannah in preschool 3 days a week. My plate is full and not working will remove ALOT of stress and provide me with time to do homework and be with the girls. I will have from 10-2 on Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Fridays to myself because both kiddos will be at school. I hope to be disciplined enough to accomplish alot during that time!
Hannah is not too thrilled about attending school 3 days verses 2. She has been a preschooler for a year now and she still doesn't really like it. It is hard and structured and all she wants to do is play. She doesn't like handwriting because it takes too long. School doesn't come easy to her and I worry about this for her future. She is quick to want to give up because she becomes bored or frustrated. I need to work with her about finishing what we start. She would much rather play dress up or with her dollys than do any kind of work!
Well, enough updates for now. I have reading to do and the treadmill is starring me down!
On to other things- Brandon started back to work a few days ago. It has been an adjustment for all of us. He is dealing with it fairly well, and he is not in too much pain. I on the other hand, realize how grateful I am to have him as my husband. He does SO much around the house and with the kids. I miss his help! And his companionship- it is lonely in the evenings again! Back to routine....
Speaking of routine, mine has changed as I was laid off this week. This is both good and bad. Bad because we need the extra money and I need the time away from the house. But really, it is good. I am going to be so busy this fall with school (taking 21 units in the fall! Yikes!) and with MOPs ( coordinating it for the first time) and with our vacation (Disney for a week! I can't wait) and with Claire being in Kindergarten (homework, adjusting her schedule, etc) and with Hannah in preschool 3 days a week. My plate is full and not working will remove ALOT of stress and provide me with time to do homework and be with the girls. I will have from 10-2 on Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Fridays to myself because both kiddos will be at school. I hope to be disciplined enough to accomplish alot during that time!
Hannah is not too thrilled about attending school 3 days verses 2. She has been a preschooler for a year now and she still doesn't really like it. It is hard and structured and all she wants to do is play. She doesn't like handwriting because it takes too long. School doesn't come easy to her and I worry about this for her future. She is quick to want to give up because she becomes bored or frustrated. I need to work with her about finishing what we start. She would much rather play dress up or with her dollys than do any kind of work!
Well, enough updates for now. I have reading to do and the treadmill is starring me down!
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Catching up....
This has been a busy summer and we haven't even gone on a vacation! On June 16th Brandon was in a mountain biking accident and stayed 2 nights in the Trauma ICU. That was a BIG scare for me and he is now home and doing okay. He will be going back to work at the end of this month. It has been difficult for all of us having him home. It is never easy to change routine. He is bored out of his mind and ready to return to normal living.
On June 19th, Claire graduated from preschool. She was absolutely adorable and I am still in shock that I have a kindergartner. It seems like yesterday that I found out I was pregnant with her. I can not believe how big she is and how beautiful she is. I am so blessed to have her and I am learning to be a better parent to her. She is still attending Joy of Children Preschool through the end of July and will officially start Kindergarten on August 10th! Less than a month away! Yikes! I am excited for her and she can not wait to begin school at Russell Ranch Elementary. I am a little worried about her adjusting, but I know that she will be okay.
Hannah is blossoming. She still likes to be the baby, but she is getting more of her own voice. She will start attending preschool 3 days a week to prep her for Kindergarten. She is looking forward to being a leader this year at preschool and is excited for some of her friends to join her this next year. I am amazed at her wittiness- she is always saying something to make me laugh!
I am busy as always but trying to find balance in life. I know that this time next year I will be done with my bachelors and I will be able to relax a bit! I can not wait to finish up school next May. It is not too far away!
Life is good and God is good!
On June 19th, Claire graduated from preschool. She was absolutely adorable and I am still in shock that I have a kindergartner. It seems like yesterday that I found out I was pregnant with her. I can not believe how big she is and how beautiful she is. I am so blessed to have her and I am learning to be a better parent to her. She is still attending Joy of Children Preschool through the end of July and will officially start Kindergarten on August 10th! Less than a month away! Yikes! I am excited for her and she can not wait to begin school at Russell Ranch Elementary. I am a little worried about her adjusting, but I know that she will be okay.
Hannah is blossoming. She still likes to be the baby, but she is getting more of her own voice. She will start attending preschool 3 days a week to prep her for Kindergarten. She is looking forward to being a leader this year at preschool and is excited for some of her friends to join her this next year. I am amazed at her wittiness- she is always saying something to make me laugh!
I am busy as always but trying to find balance in life. I know that this time next year I will be done with my bachelors and I will be able to relax a bit! I can not wait to finish up school next May. It is not too far away!
Life is good and God is good!
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