Claire had her last day of preschool on Friday. It was bittersweet and I must admit, I teared up. I didn't expect this response, but really I should have. The teachers at Joy Of Children have given me such great support and love over the past 3 years and Claire has thrived there. Claire has mixed emotions about Kindergarten- she is excited because it is "real school", but on the other hand she is scared. Most of her preschool friends will be attending other schools, so Claire will be making lots of new friends. One week from tomorrow, and she will be attending "real school!" I don't think I am ready for this-it feels like she was just a baby. As I think back on these past five years, I am filled with a bit of regret. There are so many things that I would have done differently; so many mistakes that I have made. She is my first born and I am, in a lot of ways, much tougher on her than Hannah. She pushes ever button inside of me and instead of loving her and embracing her special and unique makeup, I get irritated and frustrated. I constantly battle with myself and my parenting abilities. I know that this is and always will be an area of growth....
On to other things- Brandon started back to work a few days ago. It has been an adjustment for all of us. He is dealing with it fairly well, and he is not in too much pain. I on the other hand, realize how grateful I am to have him as my husband. He does SO much around the house and with the kids. I miss his help! And his companionship- it is lonely in the evenings again! Back to routine....
Speaking of routine, mine has changed as I was laid off this week. This is both good and bad. Bad because we need the extra money and I need the time away from the house. But really, it is good. I am going to be so busy this fall with school (taking 21 units in the fall! Yikes!) and with MOPs ( coordinating it for the first time) and with our vacation (Disney for a week! I can't wait) and with Claire being in Kindergarten (homework, adjusting her schedule, etc) and with Hannah in preschool 3 days a week. My plate is full and not working will remove ALOT of stress and provide me with time to do homework and be with the girls. I will have from 10-2 on Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Fridays to myself because both kiddos will be at school. I hope to be disciplined enough to accomplish alot during that time!
Hannah is not too thrilled about attending school 3 days verses 2. She has been a preschooler for a year now and she still doesn't really like it. It is hard and structured and all she wants to do is play. She doesn't like handwriting because it takes too long. School doesn't come easy to her and I worry about this for her future. She is quick to want to give up because she becomes bored or frustrated. I need to work with her about finishing what we start. She would much rather play dress up or with her dollys than do any kind of work!
Well, enough updates for now. I have reading to do and the treadmill is starring me down!
