And then it was over

I can not believe that Christmas has already come and gone. Wow! That was a whirlwind of a holiday! I have been so busy these past 6 weeks I have barely had time to blink! Christmas day was great, the girls were adorable and I really enjoyed watching them open their gifts. We had a relaxing day and everyone got along great. I had to work on Christmas eve and the day after Christmas, which was a drag. The office was SO slow and I was bummed that I had to be away from the girls. Oh well. It is a necessary evil. I have been feeling very angry lately and I think it is because I am disconnected emotionally. I don't have time to connect with my family and friends and when I do, I am exhausted and in a hurry. I am hoping to be able to slow down a bit soon. We are trying to work out a way to pay for preschool with me working part time. Full time is too much on me and my family.

We are going to take the girls sledding on New Years day. They have never really been in the snow, so we will see how much they like it. I think that Claire will love it and Hannah will whine, but who knows what will happen. Jeanne and Barbara are going to come with me. Brandon is going to go skiing since we bought him a season pass for his birthday. He is soooo happy to have a pass as he thought he wasn't going to get one. I just hope he stays safe!

I am anticipating the New Year and am determined to loose weight and be more emotionally health. I want to be a good wife and mom and person, and right now I feel like I am just going through the motions.

Family Update

I spent the afternoon wrapping. Our tree is bursting with gifts- we are truly blessed. I am getting more and more excited for Christmas to come- not for me, but for the girls! I love seeing their eyes light up on Christmas morning as they come out to see what Santa has left. They are too cute!

Hannah has been sick the last few days. It is a bummer, but I am glad that she is sick now and not on Christmas. I think she is on the tail end of it, her fever has been gone for almost 24 hours. Claire has been very sweet to her- giving her lots of kisses and loves. We have spent most of our time snuggling on the couch watching Christmas specials off of the DVR. It is nice to not have an agenda and just spend time with my kiddos. I miss them and love it when we cuddle.

Brandon has been busy with work. He seems a bit distant lately and I know that he is stressed. It has been a big change for him too and he is struggling with a loss of personal time. He is used to having his "days off" and with me back at work those aren't happening. Sure he isn't going into work, but he is at home with the girls now. I used to get so frustrated because he would think that I had days off everyday because I was at home. I think he is starting to realize what a false perception this is. I hope that he gets used to it and makes the best of it. It is just a season and this too shall pass.

10 day countdown

I can hardly believe that Christmas is almost here. Where has the time gone? I am done with all the gift shopping, now just to find the time to wrap. I am loving the cold weather (even though it is really really cold) because it makes me just want to snuggle under a blankie! The house is nice and festive and all the lights outside are a joy to look at.

I am feeling a bit more settled with work, the girls are still having some issues though. I really hope that they will settle as soon as the holiday madness is over. I am trying to maximize all the time I have with them as it is a lot less than it used to be.

What am I doing?

I am barely surviving working, kids, school, marriage, church etc. Did I bite off more than I can chew? Will it get easier? Will my kids ever really adjust? I am really second guessing myself here but feel stuck. Without work, there is no preschool. What do I do? HELP!